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Goodbye Garden

Finished putting the garden to bed yesterday. A bit of kale and chard left in the raised beds, but if it doesnt rain thst will soon die. Looks tidy, but barren out back.

Today's plans are to work on the clearing for the hottub out front. Might happen. The sun is shining and Trent is home from school to help. He was a great assistant yesterday, running the hedge trimmer that I can no longer handle.

I seem to be rather thoroughly depressed. Could be because tomorrow is the anniversary of my mother's  death and the hubs cancer diagnosis. Definitely don't like the way I feel and the seeming total loss of interest in creating anything.

This too shall pass. It always has so far, so hanging in there reading a very long book and knitting a hat plus watching a buttload of TV.


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Oct. 18th, 2019 02:00 pm (UTC)
Depression comes easily right now, for me anyway. Heartbreaking news, every day.

Whatcha reading? Watching?

(I thought Hubs Cancer was something your mother had!) Until I read Miss Mallorys comment. That must be a heavyweight on you right now. Yikes)

Edited at 2019-10-18 04:38 pm (UTC)
Oct. 19th, 2019 11:55 am (UTC)
Even without watching the news, I still hear too much and it is difficult to ignore the state of the world.

Still following Martha Gellhorn around, this time in a collection of her war reports plus Caleb Carr's follow up to "The Alienist," titled "Angel of Darkness."

TV, hah, I watch about 10 minutes of most things before moving on. Found myself caught in a documentary on Netflix, "Rotten," detailing the origins of food production and the horrors surrounding it. I may never eat another avocado. Obviously this did not help the depression. But did get caught up on "A Million Little Things," which wasn't too bad.I should probably watch comedy and did try "Shameless" recommended by my daughter. Not awful, pretty raunchy. William Macy portrays an interesting character. There is a British version I want to check out.

Oh, and perverse though it might be, I chuckled at the Hubs cancer mixup.

Edited at 2019-10-19 11:57 am (UTC)
Oct. 18th, 2019 02:50 pm (UTC)

I know it's not easy right now, but I hope you do find the drive to create something <3
Oct. 19th, 2019 11:41 am (UTC)
Thanks sweetie, I'll be fine. October is more than half gone after all.
Oct. 18th, 2019 02:59 pm (UTC)
You buried the lede there, girlfriend.

Hub's cancer diagnosis?

I know you have ambivalent feelings about the hub, but that is major.

I am sending you many good thoughts. Wish I had an escapist fiction recommendation for you, but I am reading a true financial thriller called Billion Dollar Whale: The Man Who Fooled Wall Street, Hollywood, and the World, which I don't think you'd like at all.
Oct. 19th, 2019 11:40 am (UTC)
No doubt buried on purpose, didn't really mean to blubber all over the page, but it did help break through the dismal murkies. All that was nearly 30 years ago, you would think I'd be over it. He did, after all, survive unlike B.

Your book sounds like a good doorstop lol. Financial thriller. Is that really a genre?

Oct. 19th, 2019 11:49 am (UTC)
Yeah. Michael Lewis helped popularize it with books like Liar's Poker and The Big Short. I was an econ major in college, so it's right up up my alley.😀
Oct. 19th, 2019 12:15 pm (UTC)
I learn a lot from you. And wow we are so different: English Lit major, Women's Studies minor, but I didn't go to college till I was 40.
Oct. 18th, 2019 03:30 pm (UTC)
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Oct. 19th, 2019 11:33 am (UTC)
Oct. 18th, 2019 05:15 pm (UTC)
{{{Hugs you}}}
Oct. 19th, 2019 11:34 am (UTC)
Oct. 18th, 2019 09:55 pm (UTC)
I'm so behind I had no idea how you have been suffering. I'm so sorry.

Love and light to you <3
Oct. 19th, 2019 11:33 am (UTC)
Thanks. Much appreciated.
Oct. 20th, 2019 10:47 am (UTC)
I'm sorry the depression has kicked in with the shorter days and less sunlight but I'm glad friends on here helped. Nothing like other people to cheer you up!

I was a bit 0.o to read about your hubby's cancer diagnosis, but upon scrolling down, I read it was 30 years ago? Good on your hubby for overcoming it!

Saying to yourself, 'this too, shall pass' is a good idea. I've done it myself. And now I know why I felt depressed last Thursday night! I wish my ex's brother had let me now earlier so that I could make arrangements and make sure everybody was okay with me being there! (Which it turns out they all are.)
Oct. 20th, 2019 01:41 pm (UTC)
Looks like sun today and that helps. I didn't plan to write about it, it just sirt if cane out, but glad I did because I do feel better.

Funny how anniversary dates bring back the feelings, no matter how long ago. After treatment and surgery husband changed his lifestyle and now takes no medications, amazing.

We live a temporary existence and while some things seem to last forever -especially bad things-they actually don't. I am glad things worked out for you with the ex's family.
Oct. 24th, 2019 12:36 pm (UTC)
Funny how it all comes out sometimes, isn't it? And, yet, it made you feel better, and that's all that matters.

Yes, it is funny how anniversaries bring back feelings, even years after. I have trouble enjoying November, now, when all the Jacaranda flowers are out, because it was exam time :( I'm so glad your hubby recovered, does not need meds and has stayed perfectly healthy all these years! May he have many more :)

My ex's family were always okay. It was some of his friends I was worried about. It turned out that no-one on the community blamed me one bit and all of them understood perfectly. After all, they were the ones having to put up with him. And what a sterling job they did as a community. That was real community, that was. And I think it will grow from strength to strength, from here on out, too.
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