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In Absentia

I seem to be absent from life lately which spills over and makes me absent from LJ too. Feel certain this is due to continued anxiety about tomorrow's laser surgery. Though I am more relaxed than I was last week.  I do love the way the light changes the etched glass that hangs in the living room. Most times the pattern is barely discernable.


Of course life goes on even when I am lost in my head and I try hard to participate in family stuff and keep my mouth shut about my worries. Thus New Year's Day was pretty darned good. I made Hopping John and cornbread which we consumed with gusto. Then we put on some music and Anah had us all up dancing.

We have had some lovely weather, sunny and temps in the 50's so was able to be outside which is great for the spirit.

Saturday found us having lunch at this small restaurant we all love to celebrate the husband's 71st birthday.


Had a weird and entirely new experience when right after eating some of the new year's leftovers, my face flamed bright red and hot. It is a spicy dish and that was no doubt the cause, glad it didn't last long.

Acquired  small Bluetooth speaker and am now listening to music everyday and often dancing. Putting  lot of effort into overcoming the chronic anxiety which worsens in winter.

As part of that effort am now daily corresponding with an old friend and exchanging list of things for which we are grateful. Have had great success with this before and it is proving to be helpful once again. I do have to laugh as after I mentioned I was struggling with some aspects of aging, my friend suggested we appreciate aging. Talk about a challenge. At first I came up with things like more time, more money, less responsibility and then I totally faltered and eventually we gave up that focus and switched to appreciating our husbands, something that is almost as difficult some days.

After knitting a few dishcloths for me, went back to the lace socks. Would like to grout the bathroom mosaic soon, but it is cold back there, my excuse for the moment.

Currently reading Donna Tartt's, The Goldfinch, which is intriguing though wordy. Also reading, Spirit Catches You andYou Fall Down, a book about medical ethics centered on the Hmong refugees in Merced, CA. The book is an assignment for my daughter's class in Nursing Ethics and my reading offers her a discussion partner. Quite an interesting people, the Hmong. I am learning a lot,

Today is cold and rainy and I'll be inside, reading, knitting and hopefully dancing and grateful that it is warm and dry in here.

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missdiane
Jan. 7th, 2019 01:43 pm (UTC)
Sending hugs! You know we're here for you!
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 02:10 pm (UTC)
Thanks! <3
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missdiane
Jan. 7th, 2019 03:00 pm (UTC)
Reported as bot account. Ew.
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:02 pm (UTC)
Got rid of that...ewww
amethyst_witch
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:05 pm (UTC)
Yuck was it a porn bot? That happened to me once
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:13 pm (UTC)
I would guess so, I'm really quite ignorant about such things.
amethyst_witch
Jan. 7th, 2019 05:13 pm (UTC)
Lucky you *lol*
msdazy03
Jan. 7th, 2019 01:50 pm (UTC)
I love to dance too!
Glad you are doing better :)
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 02:10 pm (UTC)
Dancing is good in many ways.
mallorys_camera
Jan. 7th, 2019 02:22 pm (UTC)
I love, love, LOVE The Goldfinch! :-)

Sending you many good pre-surgery thoughts.
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:04 pm (UTC)
I thought you did, always watch to see what you are reading as we have similar tastes. Have " The Shining Girls" in my book queue.

Thanks for the vibes, much appreciated.

mallorys_camera
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:09 pm (UTC)
Be forewarned: The Sining Girls is a horror novel, and if you don't like the horror genre, you won't like that book. :-)
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:16 pm (UTC)
Not usually my thing, but I will at least give it a go. Ty for the heads up.
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Jan. 7th, 2019 03:35 pm (UTC)
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justapostcard
Jan. 7th, 2019 03:48 pm (UTC)
I read The Goldfinch, too, and enjoyed it a lot.

Aging sure can be tough and I like what you’re doing with your friend - thinking of things to be grateful for. It really does help even though I’m not always in the mood for it!

Thinking of you as you have your surgery today...
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:10 pm (UTC)
It is going quickly which is good since it is a huge book.

Sometimes it takes me all day to come up with things to appreciate, but I can always fall back on bring able to breathe easily, bring warm and well fed etc., simple stuff I forget to be grateful for.

Thanks for thinking of me. I expect the procedure to be simple, just hope it works :-)

amethyst_witch
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:07 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

Wishing you luck tomorrow with the laser surgery <3 You're gonna rock it.

Happy Bday to the hubs ^_^

So happy to hear you're using dance for therapeutic reasons <3 Personally it is my favourite medicine.
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 04:23 pm (UTC)
Thanks for your awesome encouragement and sweet hugs. I'm certain it will be fine.

And dancing is essential to well-being imho. <3
amethyst_witch
Jan. 7th, 2019 05:16 pm (UTC)
Will you be Reiki-ing your eye area after? I would ^_^ I will whip out the Reiki for anything *lol* but this is actually a prime example of when it could be really helping & healing ^_^

It IS. I never feel so ALIVE as when I'm dancing, swimming or ~loving~ ^_^
spikesgirl58
Jan. 7th, 2019 06:15 pm (UTC)
Fingers crossed that all goes well for you tomorrow. I'm sure it will be a piece of yummy cake!
rosegardenfae
Jan. 7th, 2019 06:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks girl, I like that word: yummy!

Edited at 2019-01-07 06:18 pm (UTC)
olbuksings
Jan. 7th, 2019 09:46 pm (UTC)
My very best wishes for a successful surgery tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you, for sure...
olbuksings
Jan. 7th, 2019 09:48 pm (UTC)
PS - Also read The Goldfinch and recall enjoying it. But, like this morning's breakfast, that's about all I remember about it, lol...
rosegardenfae
Jan. 8th, 2019 12:51 pm (UTC)
Lol I know exactly what you mean. Keeping notes on the other book so I will be a good discussion partner.

Edited at 2019-01-08 12:51 pm (UTC)
rosegardenfae
Jan. 8th, 2019 12:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks, much appreciated.
kabuldur
Jan. 8th, 2019 09:40 am (UTC)
Good luck with your surgery! Dad had his done and could see so much better afterwards. Also, Mr Cleverhands.

Happy birthday to your hubby!

Glad you've had some nice temps.

I love your lacy socks, so go you!

And that's great that you're dancing, too!
rosegardenfae
Jan. 8th, 2019 12:49 pm (UTC)
It is not cataract surgery, but rather a procedure to open the angles that drain fluid from the eye. I have glaucoma, eyesight is good and cataracts nit bad yet though husband recently had his done and is enjoying better vision.

Indeed things are going well around here.
kabuldur
Jan. 9th, 2019 11:27 am (UTC)
Sorry I got that wrong but hope it goes well.

Glad everything is going well :)
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