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Word prompt - worst case


I am totally a fatalist. It is not fun. The smallest twinge, tic, or tickle immediately is translated into any number of serious and mostly fatal ailments. If a family member is 10 minutes late and I can't reach them by phone my mind whips up a dire scenario. They've been kidnapped or had an accident.

Certainly I have worked to change the story my mind weaves and have made progress over the years, but still the fatalism can creep into an ordinary situation and there I am stuck in the worst case scenario once again.

My mother and her mother before her were both pessimists so there are genetics involved.
I think I always tended to think in this manner, but it became habitual after the death of my husband when I was 21 and then was further cemented by my granddaughter's passing at age 2. Both died in accidents.

No therapy nor head meds have fixed me. Meditation helps tremendously.  Distraction is another great tool.

I seriously envy the optimists in this world.

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olbuksings
Jul. 27th, 2018 01:48 pm (UTC)
"I seriously envy the optimists in this world."

Amen!
spikesgirl58
Jul. 27th, 2018 01:48 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
msdazy03
Jul. 27th, 2018 02:02 pm (UTC)
Aw...you surely have had tragedies in your life. Hugs my dear friend.
kabuldur
Jul. 28th, 2018 08:12 am (UTC)
I tell myself, 'No news is good news'. That works to a certain extent :P

That's terrible that your husband passed away at 21. And that you lost a grandchild at the age of two.

I'm glad that you are not on meds. Your response after these events is normal.

I am an optimist...just!
amethyst_witch
Jul. 28th, 2018 03:09 pm (UTC)
I'm right here with you.
rosegardenfae
Jul. 28th, 2018 04:33 pm (UTC)
I kinda thought so.
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