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Dreaming, I'm Always Dreaming

I have a lot of dreams and I remember many of them. Some are nice, some are scary, but last night I dreamed about my long dead (50 yrs ) husband which was just plain weird. Not frightening, actually quite pleasant. I dont remember how we encountered each other. What impressed me most was that he was whole again, somehow healed from the burns that covered his body after a fiery car crash. So unlike the early years when I would have nightmares in which he came to me looking as he had when he left home the day of his death and then would remove his mask to reveal how I saw him last charred and swollen, a monster not a man.

He was still 26, vital, handsome, and it felt so good to be with him. Yet I kept looking everywhere for our daughter because I so wanted him to meet her since his death preceded her birth. But, I couldn't find her. He gave me a book detailing all the procedures that had been used to put him back together again.  I was looking at the book when I awoke. This dream has stayed with me all day which is also weird.

The relationship was short, only 4 months and truly I don't consciously think of him often, if at all,  though I carry the scars of that tragedy in each of my anxious moments.  I used to keep a dream journal and was good at interpretation. But, that also was long ago and I can't fathom what last night's dream might signify.

Oddly enough, the daymare I had earlier yesterday included husband #1. If they proceed in order, tonight could be husband #3. Hopeful that doesn't happen as he doesn't show up in my dreams either and frankly was a scary dude sometimes. He is also dead. Of course, by the time you reach your 7th decade a lot of friends and lovers are gone.

I know some of you might have an idea what last night's dream might have meant and I welcome all ideas.

For the moment I'm hanging onto to thinking that he was healthy, happy, and at peace and that he wants that for me as well.

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ladyblue56
Feb. 9th, 2018 09:45 pm (UTC)
I don't know much about dream interpretation but know the unsettledness and
dream-hangover feeling they can leave. And a book detailing all the wonders done to make him whole again, that is fascinating and do you remember anything from the book?

"For the moment I'm hanging onto to thinking that he was healthy, happy, and at peace and that he wants that for me as well." I vote for this.
rosegardenfae
Feb. 9th, 2018 10:07 pm (UTC)
Oddly enough there was a video in the book, more weirdness. Don't remember more probably because I'm trying to forget.
mallorys_camera
Feb. 10th, 2018 11:33 am (UTC)
I think the dream is very positive myself. A reminder that you are loved.

I also suspect that something may be up with his daughter that you may not know about. I'd be inclined to give her a call.
rosegardenfae
Feb. 10th, 2018 01:34 pm (UTC)
The dream certainly had a positive feel, and from my own knowledge of dream interpretation I remember mood is important. Love is always welcome.

As for our daughter, I talked to her that same morning, She called which is also unusual. Nothing going on but her ordinary grumblings (she's known for that) but some troubling info about her youngest son did surface. In direct contrast, she had at long last heard from her eldest son who has been off our radar for a while.

Thanks for taking the time to give this some thought.

Edited at 2018-02-10 01:35 pm (UTC)
faunhaert
Feb. 12th, 2018 04:45 am (UTC)
a book from the akashic records.
that really cool
I'm glad he came to talk with you.

living older can have its draw backs
but i'm going to try to anyways

hugs
kabuldur
Feb. 12th, 2018 09:53 am (UTC)
I think that was a good dream on your #2 husband and I think your interpretation was spot on.
rosegardenfae
Feb. 12th, 2018 12:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks, validation is worth so much to me, especially right now.
rosegardenfae
Feb. 12th, 2018 12:42 pm (UTC)
Oh, until your comment I did not connect the book ton the Akashic records, but it makes sense. I am glad he came as well, now laid to rest some doubts about that time in my life.

Maybe this will help me get a grip on this aging business as I've not been rolling with it well.

Love those hugs!
ahdedahl
Feb. 12th, 2018 11:37 am (UTC)
This isn't so much of an interpretation as a comment, but I find that there are times when I have those kind of dreams with someone that I haven't thought about in a long time that I really feel like it's just a visit from them. Just a spirit checking in with me, especially if it was someone that really influenced my life in some way. It usually leaves me with a good but nondefinable feeling and I reminisce and remember what they taught me, or how they changed me. At times there've been situations in my life where, once I remember that influence, it helps me through something, other times, it's just a visit with an old friend. If any of that makes any sense lol
rosegardenfae
Feb. 12th, 2018 12:35 pm (UTC)
Makes a lot of sense, it felt like a visit and I'd had such a stressful week that it was for sure a comfort. Perhaps a sign that if I managed to get through his death that I can easily travel through what's going on now. I appreciate your thoughts on the deepest level.

Edited at 2018-02-12 12:35 pm (UTC)
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