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Quiet times

Not much going on around here so little to write about. We did get snow,  maybe an inch. It was lovely this morning all unmarked and serene.

I've been, sketching, knitting on a pair of socks, and reading. Putting in time on the stationary bike, cooking, eating and feeling generally uninspired. Had a HUGE Anxiety Attack which left me shaky all day Saturday. Was very grateful that daughter #2 had planned a visit.  Her company was a blessing. We spent our time together talking and reading.

I did have a wonderful visit with my granddaughter, Anah, after school on Friday. We talked about life and watched an episode of "This Is Us" which made us both cry. It's been far too long since we've been together in this way and I so appreciate these ever more rare occasions. Just because I understand how different and busy her life is now doesn't mean I don't miss her. Just as I miss her mom who is now studying to be a Nurse Practitioner which along with working full time and being a great mom takes up all her time. Yesterday was the first Sunday in a long time thst we didn't eat together.


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Jan. 15th, 2018 02:35 pm (UTC)
Wow, that looks so quiet. What a great shot!

I know what you mean about missing someone. Even though I know how busy The boy is, I still miss him bunches. he can always make me laugh
Jan. 15th, 2018 04:46 pm (UTC)

Shot was accidental, no way was I going to get very far outside the door.

Jan. 15th, 2018 07:23 pm (UTC)
Those are the best kinds! :D
Jan. 15th, 2018 04:42 pm (UTC)
This Is Us always makes me cry. It's a cheap tactic on their part! But also a little relief for me.
Jan. 15th, 2018 04:44 pm (UTC)

I hear ya. Oft times I need a push to get the relief of a few tears.

Edited at 2018-01-15 04:44 pm (UTC)
Jan. 15th, 2018 05:42 pm (UTC)
What a sweet picture <3

Glad you got some much needed family time. I miss my family a lot; does my heart good to see one of my friends appreciating those moments so much.

Sorry about your bad attack on Saturday. Can I ask what some of the things are that you do to calm down after? I feel like each attack takes a year off my life.
Jan. 15th, 2018 09:03 pm (UTC)
First line of defense take a pill, though I don't like benzos and I know they are harmful, I've been legally taking them for 25 yrs off and on and I'm sure you know they are seriously addictive and very hard to quit. My struggles with that issue is chronicled elsewhere in this journal.

On the more positive side of what I do to feel better: meditation, exercise, pranayama (breathwork), chanting, gratitude lists and going outside. I had my first PA over 40 years ago and agree that they take a toll. The most difficult thing is trying not distract myself from the fear that I will have another one. I'm so sorry that you experience this, it really sucks!
Jan. 16th, 2018 05:26 am (UTC)
I empathize with that. I had such serious addiction problems in the past that now I can't even go for a regular check up because I'm so super paranoid and distrustful of them (the one time I tried to get something to help with my anxiety they (the pills) made me completely suicidal. Never want to feel anything like that again...) I'm glad you have found something that really does help. I've always been a self medicator (grass) and that helps--but ya can't always just light up everywhere :S but I get by okay, I guess.

Thank you for sharing your tips with me :) I really want to learn more about breathwork, I think I'll look into that this week! I'm sorry you deal with it, too.

Jan. 15th, 2018 07:42 pm (UTC)
Those are both great pictures. They are very large though, and mess up my friends page. Could you reduce the size a little, Thanks.
Jan. 15th, 2018 08:24 pm (UTC)
I will try to do that, may take me a bit to figure it out, not in my skill set lol
Jan. 15th, 2018 08:54 pm (UTC)
Please let me know if what I did worked.
Jan. 16th, 2018 03:05 am (UTC)
Much better.
Something even in between the two would work also.

I love the cheek kiss photo. Tender.
Jan. 16th, 2018 12:07 pm (UTC)
Good. Do you know what size in pixels is best?

I like the smooch pic too.
Jan. 16th, 2018 04:20 pm (UTC)
I limit the size to 800 PX if the picture is placed horizontal and 600 if its verticle. Some people on LJ are unable to create their friends' page to size all entries to meet their screen, but those who don't have a paid account, I believe, large pictures will spill over the edges creating scrollbars on the bottom and the side which is a real hassle managing your friends' page.
Does this make sense?
Jan. 16th, 2018 06:34 pm (UTC)
Yes makes sense, thanks. These are 400px on the horizontal and 350 on the vertical so a bit small. Ah, I've learned something today, I can go back to goofing off lol
Jan. 19th, 2018 01:13 am (UTC)
My "default" photo size is 730 pixels wide and the 548 pixels high that automatically goes with in (I use IrfanView for editing). This is the best width for my blog that I found by trial and error, but I'm not sure if it works for everybody's friends page.

Edited at 2018-01-19 01:14 am (UTC)
Jan. 19th, 2018 12:59 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the info. I use PhotoPhiltre. I tend to use my tablet for posts and am thinking I should use the laptop so I can resize pics.
Jan. 17th, 2018 03:36 am (UTC)
"I did have a wonderful visit with my granddaughter, Anah..."

Best news ever! So very happy for you! Also, very impressive and challenging career goal taken on by her mom...

Edited at 2018-01-17 03:41 am (UTC)
Jan. 17th, 2018 12:18 pm (UTC)
And school was out yesterday and the kid actually called me just to chat, made me so happy.

Erin will be great in her new profession, quite proud of her!
Jan. 19th, 2018 01:29 am (UTC)
Thank you for sharing your snow with me; I wish I could get some myself.

Ouch, I'm sorry to hear about that anxiety attack and glad that your daughter helped it with it.

I know what it's like to miss a grown child who now has a busy independent life, in my own unconventional paternal role. I guess it isn't very different with a grandchild. It's good that you are fully aware of "how different and busy her life is now" but I'm afraid that doesn't make it very much easier.
Jan. 19th, 2018 12:56 pm (UTC)
Though I have other grandchildren my relationship with Anah has always been different because until she was 5 she and her mom lived here.

Our snow is almost gone now. Hope you get some.
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