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What a Difference


I'm amazed and grateful how quickly I can improve both physically and emotionally in the course of a medication withdrawal. Literally, the whole thing can "turn on a dime." Although I woke up and thought today might equal yesterday and I felt crummy for a while, now things are great. Or,  if not actually great, definitely tolerable. Since this is not my first rodeo, having detoxed from antidepressants in '09, knowing that relief can be just around the corner keeps me going. The brain is mysterious for sure.

Walked in the park this morning. It was a bit dicey as the many oaks along the trail are dropping acorns and one needs to watch where to step. I met this guy


slowly oozing along the path and was glad he was only about 3 in. long. I wouldn't want to meet a bigger version. The exercise is a big plus. All that serotonin fills in the holes left in my brain by the departing chemicals and is soothing.

Also helps that the house is not filled with people, noise and light. And, there are leftovers so no cooking,

Put together what I hope is the last pot of succulents as I am running out of places to put them.


And now I get to do something I want like knit, read, or even nap.

Life feels livable again.

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faunhaert
Oct. 2nd, 2017 04:55 pm (UTC)
its good you are doing better
hugs

rosegardenfae
Oct. 2nd, 2017 09:25 pm (UTC)
Re: its good you are doing better
Thank you. Love me some hugs :-)
olbuksings
Oct. 2nd, 2017 07:16 pm (UTC)
Sooo good to hear. But, funny thing, the last line on my screen said, "I met this guy." And I expected to see, I dunno, maybe Jorma Kaukonen propped up against a tree with his guitar, lol.

And instead there's..."this guy... oozing along..." Too funny! Anyway, hope you continue to have a great day and I'll continue doing my "guy things" in the shop. Without the oozing, hopefully...L
rosegardenfae
Oct. 2nd, 2017 09:35 pm (UTC)
I could go for Jorma. He still looks pretty good. But alas wasn't he.

Good luck with those "guy things."

BTW I attribute my recovery in large part to the ukelele orchestra, Laughed till I cried, perfect to share with some old friends too. However in the world did you discover them?

Oozing not recommended, could mess up your project.
E
olbuksings
Oct. 3rd, 2017 02:45 am (UTC)
No, actually, he wasn't. Some people thought he was, but he wasn't. And still isn't.

So, now that we've got that settled, let me just say one thing about the "guy thing:" not every good idea, in the shop or elsewhere in life, actually is.

But something tells me that you already knew that. And now I do too. And refuse to say anything further on the subject.

Except that, no, I'm not crying because that wouldn't be guyly. Or manly. Or whatever.

As for how I discovered them, please, I don't remember what I had for breakfast, lol. But so glad you enjoyed them.

Another funny one is their take on Nirvana's "Teen Spirit" but there's a couple of different versions of some of their performances on YouTube and you've gotta find the right one.

Anyway, I've gotta go cr-, I mean, finish this manly ale I was drinking, so have a good night...

Edited at 2017-10-03 02:46 am (UTC)
rosegardenfae
Oct. 3rd, 2017 02:35 pm (UTC)
Uh yeah, I do know that, being the woman who thought it such a grand idea to get off meds that are harder to kick than heroin. I am drowning in that choice.

If crying is not for men (and personally I think a tear or two can be good for any of us), are we still stuck in the roles that dogged the steps of our acquaintances in "Mrs. Dalloway?"

My night sucked. Woke up repeatedly from terrible nightmares, sweating, trembling, weeping and have these icky feelings this morning that come from a night alone and frightened.

But, keep on moving, right? Pick my sorry ass up and find something to distract me from a world gone mad, from personal sorrows, from no more Tom Petty, from loneliness, loss and pain.

After all there are good things. There are grandchildren, good conversation, manly ale, friends and ukeleles.

With love, peace, and understanding
E
veganhothead
Oct. 2nd, 2017 09:41 pm (UTC)
"The brain is mysterious for sure." So mysterious. I'm so glad you're feeling better today. I hope this is the start of a trend for you.
rosegardenfae
Oct. 3rd, 2017 02:37 pm (UTC)
You are so very kind.
chocobell1212
Oct. 2nd, 2017 11:40 pm (UTC)
That park looks like a really good place to walk. And leftovers can be so nice to have. I'm glad you're feeling better. :-)
rosegardenfae
Oct. 3rd, 2017 02:39 pm (UTC)
The park is absolutely the best thing about the little town nearby. I agree leftovers rock, I'm getting tired of cooking. Thanks for the well wishes :-)
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