December 8th, 2008


I Can, I Want, I Know

Having been reminded by both my body and my mind that I am still "on the road" to recovery and not at the end I am stealing this format from a friend of mine as I find it helpful to remind myself just where I am right now and where I want to go.  I begin with things I couldn't do a month ago and now I CAN:

I can:

Go an entire day without crying.
Make jewelry again.
Enjoy a pain free day.
Go several hours without thinking of withdrawal.
Leave the house on my own.
Go to walmart.
Grocery shop.

I look forward to:

A return of my creativity.
Getting up feeling happy.
Relief from anxiety.
The return of self-confidence.

I know:

That all of this happened for a reason.
That I am stronger for going through it.
That I appreciate being normal much more than I ever dreamed possible.
That I have learned a lot and met a lot of wonderful people I would never have known had I not had
the experience of benzo addiction.
That I will recover fully and totally in time.
How to be much more gentle with myself.
That I am not crazy!

Wishing everyone a day filled with happiness and the appreciation of simple things!

Love, Love, Love