I will do my best to go say goodbye personally.
I am having a difficult time "keeping it together" as combined with the withdrawal symptoms, further emotional trauma really sucks.
Steve, my dying friend has been on my mind though I haven't talked to him in over a month. I recently finished scanning my pictures from the Ozark Music Festival which I attended in 1974. Today I am meeting with a woman I met online who is writing a book on this festival. Steve is in many of the pics...
Sleep last night was tortured, rent with nightmares that forced me awake -shivering... I made the decision to go back up a notch on the antidepressants until I can sleep again, and the withdrawl symptoms lessen. I am doing my best not to be uptight with myself because of this decision. It just had to be done. I came off too quickly, 25 per cent cuts instead of 5-10 per cent as is recommended.. I have always been in a HURRY!!
At the moment I am feeling much better than I did for the first two hours of awake time this a.m. So, there is HOPE...
Today October 19 is my ex-best friend's birthday, the date of my mother's death, my second daughter's anniversary, and the date my husband was disagnosed with cancer... (he is ok.. now) I need to create some better associations with this month...